Quite busy

Lost that feeling to get into a relationship. Not interested in anyone, girl or guy, as I have already clarified in my past entry. Technically, I have not lost faith in girls yet. I'm not that far gone. I have just lost faith in Singaporean girls.

Lets talk about the Media again. At least half of the commerical songs revolve around the theme of Love, in the true BGR sense. Movies have a huge genre on love stories, be it sad, happy, or even action packed. The connection between 2 people of the opposite gender that lead to many things thereafter seem to be a dream sold to the public by the media. Its like 'Sex sells.' People around me all talk about relationships. People can live without it, but the media protray them as sad, pathetic loners (not lovers) that have wasted their lives away. I beg to differ, although being ashore from the ocean of Love used to feel dry. I am more accustomed to it now.

I truly apologise for being one of them, talking, complaining, worrying like there is only one thing that this world has to offer. It used to bother me that I never had a girlfriend before. Now, it bothers me that I used to be bothered by such a trivial thing. No no, "not that love will find its way". Life is more then that. Neither is it worth the time, at least thats my opinion. I'm cut out for a loner's life? Ironically, I used to yearn for companionship. Its in my blood (and my star). Many people reading this might be thinking I'm a sore loser that quits after a few rejects or something. Maybe you are right. But from my side of the coin, I just do not want to get involved in these things anymore. I rather everything be kept simple, and everyone I meet be my friend. Common folks can't understand a monk completely, and vice versa.

Neither am I declaring singlehood forever. People, please do not print this out as a form of entertainment to tease me on my wedding day, if that ever comes. You all must now think I look like a jester slapping my own face, going back anf forth making no clear sense and contradicting myself time and time again. I'm not anti-relationship. I'm happy for friends that are in any great one now. But as if heaven is on my side, it has given me the looks to not worry about rejecting any girl along my journey of singlehood. I need not. Thanks. "Qian Niu Hua - Ah Niu and Lee Shing Jie". Such a funny and interesting song. Humours me all the time.

Lastly, sorry that I do not drink, sorry that I cut myself off from clubbing, sorry for not joining the fun. Sorry for being different. Sometimes I wonder whether my prescence depreciates the fun factor in you all. I decided shortly after the last class chalet to not go for any more JC class gatherings. Not that I am that considerate. I rather not put myself through the reminder that is already deeply engraved in my head. Maybe I'm not cut out to have friends after all. At least I have my Secondary school. Luckily I went to my Secondary school.