Reasons

Was out the whole day today, and actually, although it was a tiring day going here and there, I realised the end of the day struck me the most. It was a simple conversation that I had with ZQ, and I realised one thing that I should have done a long time ago. I talked about army, as usual, being disappointed with it and all. I remained myself why I wanted to work so hard, so that I would earn enough money so that I would not be affordable. If not, I am fine with an overseas job as well.

However, this was not all. I want to achieve more than money. I really hope to make a difference, and the difference is from human thinking. I want to change what I think is wrong with this world. I might not be 100% correct, but I am open to suggestions and ideas as well. I am not a closed book.

Yet, I do want a lot more money than I have now. Not for my own consumption, but for my future use in certain developments. I hope to spread some developments in the undeveloped areas of this planet.

I hope to achieve better standards of living for people in general. I like to live in a cover, because I feel no need to say what I really want. I rather prove it with actions. However, now I am taking a different approach. I would want to remind myself about what I want to achieve, so that I will have something to propel me forward. That is a very important reason to why I am slacking, because there is nothing propelling me forward. I have to remember, I have to really really remember.