Aug 31, 2006

Busy...

Super busy. I realized that my workaholic life is going well and strong, but my body is not. My mind is all right, but sometimes it’s not really clear from the lack of sleep I get. Also, I do reach a certain level of ‘highness’ easier due to my lack of sleep as well. Having a lot more commitments, and I think I might be breaking my limit to host all of them soon. Till then, everything will depend, especially depend on how I use the cliché word of ‘prioritize’. That might come sooner than I hope it to come.

Got 2 of my e-paychecks. Not a lot of money. That’s not everything. However, that’s one of the focuses in my life. Love is still a big part in my life, but as usual, romance is always ‘sold separately’ in my ‘package of love’, and I always can’t seem to get one. In fact, saying this again, I think that’s a part that I would never get. I am glad that my friends have meaningful relationships. Maybe 0.00001% of this world population is those that are not cut out for relationships. No matter how small is the percentage, I am very thick-skinned to regard myself as one of the very rare minority.

Maybe what I said might not make sense. That’s because I sleep at very weird timings. Sometimes a lot, sometimes very little. But certainly not as deprived as some of my other friends. I just daze and get blurred more easily, and I need normal hours of sleep. Objective, maybe I am jealous, hehe… Real sorry if I am such a bastard. I am not good enough to remove all of my weaknesses yet. In fact, I am not good enough for anyone yet. Certain words I make seem to have a warp rhetoric connotation, as though I am inviting consoles of “you-just-have-not-met-the-right-one’ type of concerns. I have nothing against them, but I am not looking for those. Neither am I really looking into a relationship nowadays. So troublesome get into one, and its harder to get out of it if you are sick of it. Sounds like joining a triad. I think the lack of sleep has just gotten to my head. So why am I still wasting time blogging? I think that’s because my confused thinking have made me prioritize blogging over readings my readings. Truly, my head is light now…

Now back to my readings.

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