Got 2 of my e-paychecks. Not a lot of money. That’s not everything. However, that’s one of the focuses in my life. Love is still a big part in my life, but as usual, romance is always ‘sold separately’ in my ‘package of love’, and I always can’t seem to get one. In fact, saying this again, I think that’s a part that I would never get. I am glad that my friends have meaningful relationships. Maybe 0.00001% of this world population is those that are not cut out for relationships. No matter how small is the percentage, I am very thick-skinned to regard myself as one of the very rare minority.
Maybe what I said might not make sense. That’s because I sleep at very weird timings. Sometimes a lot, sometimes very little. But certainly not as deprived as some of my other friends. I just daze and get blurred more easily, and I need normal hours of sleep. Objective, maybe I am jealous, hehe… Real sorry if I am such a bastard. I am not good enough to remove all of my weaknesses yet. In fact, I am not good enough for anyone yet. Certain words I make seem to have a warp rhetoric connotation, as though I am inviting consoles of “you-just-have-not-met-the-right-one’ type of concerns. I have nothing against them, but I am not looking for those. Neither am I really looking into a relationship nowadays. So troublesome get into one, and its harder to get out of it if you are sick of it. Sounds like joining a triad. I think the lack of sleep has just gotten to my head. So why am I still wasting time blogging? I think that’s because my confused thinking have made me prioritize blogging over readings my readings. Truly, my head is light now…
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