Feelings of letting go

I am learning to let go of everything. It is not that easy, but I am quite pleased with the feeling. Its quite a geniune feeling, something that I cannot really describe. Its like when you look at the sunset, and a smile just comes from inside. I am still exploring how far this feeling can go, and also how far I can go. I have not lost my goals in life. However, there are things that will change. Some of you reading this might differ, but thats the nature of humans, we are all different.

I will try to remove as many desires from my mind as I can. Eliminating attachments and desires are quite an interesting process. Its like a form of soul-searching. Anyway, when you say something to someone, sometimes you might just be wanting to prove something. I fall into this trap every so often. "Do I say for the sake of saying, and to get some expected response from other people, be it pity, concern or attention, or do I geninuely mean it?" I have a very competitive attitude, and thats something I hope to change. 'Wants' are also attachments that I hope to eliminate from within. Overly obessive of getting something, reaching a certain goal will only hurt you more in the end. Struggling franatically, as hard as you can in the water will only make you sink faster. I will strive to not have that many 'wants' and 'desires' in life, till the day when I can fully be 'attachless'.

I will stop here, taking note on what I have said, especially whether am I saying for the sake of saying. I will check on myself from here. Nice writing to you here. =)