Finally I have gone clear

Certains things have been bothering me for the past few weeks, and some for past few months. Finally, some of them have settled down, while some have sorted themselves out.

Finally, I declared my full retirement from any professional sports to myself. Its the last straw from my ankle. I will only consider sports for recreation or health, with the former more important. I lost the drive to excel or compete completely, after few years of fighting and not getting it, I finally admit defeat.

Finally, I'm currently not interested in any girls. A few days ago I was, but the feeling has died. I feel more free now. Have been thinking when will I get this feeling again, and now, finally I found it. Finally, I can treat her like a normal, good friend. Things are simplier that way, and I have less stress too. I like this feeling so much, I feel maybe I might not like any other girl in the future anymore. I said maybe, for I am not too sure myself. Still considering my Monkhood, at least the book I bought is helping me in many ways in understanding more about Buddha.

Finally, I am less grades orientated. I am not going for Honours either, as I feel its not worth the time, effort and money. FASS degree w/o Honours sounds crap. It might be, but I think its not. I might get lesser starting pay, and even might have problems finding a job, but I feel that its not really that important. I'm more interested in other stuff and Honours feel like a time-waster.