A moment of silence

I don't know them. I knew the news late. However, they affected me deeply. 2 soldiers died in the past few days during training. Reminds me of the drowning case which of a very different nature (judging from superficial information from the media).

I am saddened (understatement). I know military is important. Yet, everyone that knows me well enough knows my _____ for it. I can't find a word, and I wouldn't. Its beyond my intellect, as much as I see how many things back then were beyond my intellect too.

I am unfortunate in many ways, because I came out army socially crippled & physically half-crippled. I can't ever jump as high as I ever did, run as fast as I ever can, even walk as long as I can use to walk. Mind you, I am only 24, not 64. I want my healthy leg back....

Yet, fortunate I am in many ways. I kept my sanity through seeing things from different perceptions. I know my leg can never be the same, but for these 2 families, their house can never be the same again as well. No matter how crippled I feel, I am still alive & that itself is already a gift & a miracle...

I take a moment of silence for these 2 souls & their family members. I can imagine their tears, as much as I can imagine those of mine if I were to move on so suddenly. Holding back my own, I promise to my best to not let that happen to me & my family, ever again...