Aimless. Suddenly, I have nothing to anchor as a goal in my life again. All previous goals seem to not matter anymore. I still have anchors in my life, but being in a traditional Chinese family living in the modern society, there are so many things that this type of family setting is not apt. Most of the time, I share none of my problems to my family members. I will try to make sure my sister's problems are cleared, but when it comes to mine, I feel weird to share with anymore in my family. Thus, mostly my friends get my crap. /Here, I have to thank Kit, haha.. because she has been getting most of my crap lately. She just happen to be On-line often enough to let me slap her with all my crap. It also tends to snowball, cos I would need to say everything all over again if it was someone new. Other crap accepting friends include Tik Ying, or Incasa (I think that's her English name), Bing Yan, sometimes Long Jin, even though he is studying Law.
Lately, I really failed miserable in almost everything I do. In fact, I think I think that I am very noble or something. Why do my personality not converge at the most crucial times, and diverge like I am split into double/multiple personalities? That might be the curse of a Libra? I have to remind myself to not say too much of myself here though, because it might be used against me in the future. Maybe I should delete older entries that may be used against me. Maybe I should, when I have time. Maybe I should read other people's blog too. That is really something I do not do often.
Now, I should not have time, because I still have 3 projects due and one mid-term exam. Yes, its going to be end-term, but I still have one more mid-term to do. They are just terminology. It means 15% of my grade will be decided by myself very soon, after the 15% presentation. /Still, I am grateful, because I have great friends around me. They are willing to share their riches with me, making me wealthier than I should. I am glad that I joined Geo Soc, because without it, this semester I will be very very lost. No room to be alone with myself, no place to contemplate about life, no peace amidst the crowd. The only way I can repay is to fulfill role inside, and maybe do more.
End this entry with a quote, FOC. “I have no great ability, but great fear as well. Therefore, I can only be stationary.”
Lately, I really failed miserable in almost everything I do. In fact, I think I think that I am very noble or something. Why do my personality not converge at the most crucial times, and diverge like I am split into double/multiple personalities? That might be the curse of a Libra? I have to remind myself to not say too much of myself here though, because it might be used against me in the future. Maybe I should delete older entries that may be used against me. Maybe I should, when I have time. Maybe I should read other people's blog too. That is really something I do not do often.
Now, I should not have time, because I still have 3 projects due and one mid-term exam. Yes, its going to be end-term, but I still have one more mid-term to do. They are just terminology. It means 15% of my grade will be decided by myself very soon, after the 15% presentation. /Still, I am grateful, because I have great friends around me. They are willing to share their riches with me, making me wealthier than I should. I am glad that I joined Geo Soc, because without it, this semester I will be very very lost. No room to be alone with myself, no place to contemplate about life, no peace amidst the crowd. The only way I can repay is to fulfill role inside, and maybe do more.
End this entry with a quote, FOC. “I have no great ability, but great fear as well. Therefore, I can only be stationary.”
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