Tired again...

Have wanted to blog these few days, but lately, I am weary of blogging again. I am tired from my 4-5 hours of sleep per day. Nowadays, I feel that writing my blog has become less free-willed as possible. Future potential employers reading my blog, people I know reading my blog, it’s actually ‘you’ that may be causing my edited writing. Of course, by no means I am saying I want to delete away my blog. However, the online journal idea just does not serve the idea of a personal diary. Yet, I still feel more inclined to typing onto a computer screen as compared to writing out in the old fashion pen and paper.

Even with sadness, I am not able to really type them out, because of the people that might be reading it. Maybe I should have a separate blog, one that is personal, one that is just for me. Not for anyone else but me. Very egoistical, but that’s me, I am egoistic.

I have done certain things that I feel have been successful, but certain things have just collapsed. Still, I am going on, not because I love to, because I have a social responsibility. My academic results, my family, my friends, even my enemies. I am needed so that my enemies can have someone to hate. That’s the only way life can find it balance.

On the bright side, I am learning to be stronger mentally, even though I feel that since my lousy army times, I have grown quite a lot. Sometimes are never enough. Oh, one last thing, Happy Lunar New Year. It’s not just Chinese New Year, because I think non-Chinese like Japanese also used to use this calendar? That’s my guess. I am not very sure either. =)