Feeling myself, I cannot really feel much. Not because I am feeling numb, because I do not know what to feel. Its not a bad feeling, just that its not really a good feeling either. Actually, its not a feeling at all. Sensing around, its not that I am lost. I know where I am. I am just not sure where I should go. However, I hate crowds, and following the norms seem to never appeal to me. I should have realised, that Honours is really a migrate, appeal and nice, but something that is more like an illusion to me. Having Honours or not does not make me a better or worse man. Character does that. Sadly, this society does not really value character. Not even in relationships nowadays is this aspect taken note. Appearance and capital seems to have taken the bulk in people evaluation, rather than character. To think of it, its not that I fail, its just that I am sitting for the wrong test papers all the time. Need to find someone that can give me to correct test papers, the ones that I can score.
People! I need a sign. I am a bit confused by this thing called interpersonal interactions. That is one thing I may not be able to learn even if I am a 1st class Honours student. No offence to them, but some are just pure smarts, and nothing else. Life is not just like that. Thats my saving grace! Fortunate indeed I am, and sometimes, life may still seem to be a tinge fair after all. =)
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