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i dun really keep in contact w any of my pri sch mates. i only keep contact w a couple of my tchs friends. i dun keep contact w most of my jc friends (apparantly, the 2 'jc' friends that i used to keep contact w are not really from my jc, but i knew them during my jc times, so i include them as 'jc' friends). i only have a handful of female friends that i still contact, under 10 that really talk to me. guy friends aint much better, only those that play vball w me, n those closer ones.

i have a couple of friends from overseas, n i feel that im closer to them than most of my friends in spore. Maybe those that i have not contacted for more than a yr i shld regard them as people that i know, rather than friends?

Now im leaving the army soon. I might face the same prob. i fear that i will lose them, cos i dun have much in common w most of them. i dun chiong, i dun realy like soccer, n i dun play pool, or LAN, or maple story, or RO or bowling. i only play vball, n thats the only place where i still have a grp of close friends.

My hp list has only abt 150> people. i contact less than 20 of them? or less. as i have said, some of my closer friends are actually from other countries. some times feel that maybe i not worthy as friends to some of the people i know. i do miss my friends.

Watch an average of 1 movie abt wat, once every 6 months? or 4 months? cant seem to find anyone to watch w me. only have 2 friends in my mind now that would watch movies w me on a regular basis. haha.. i my regular basis is i usually watch movies w them. 1 is going to america, while 1 is happily attached. Happy for them, nevertheless =)

My jc mates were the most unseen after graduation. those that werent close i lost completely. those that were somewat close i lost almost completely. maybe its not that tey are lost, but i am the one that is lost from this world. but that i know its my fault in a way. i was a real loner back then =) no pt saying this either. dun think any of my jc mates will ever read this anyway.

just makes me wonder, how many would attend my funeral if i were to die now, exluding my family members. have a few in mind. hope they dun disappoint me. At least i know u who are reading this will come, rit?

When was the last time u saw me? U never know, those few yrs back that u last saw me might be the last time u will ever see me.

Just some tots n maybe frustrations. Peace to the World =)